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Yesssssssss!!!!!

So anyways….as I have said before this week has been a hard week…really it has been a hard year. We lost my great grandma only a couple days ago, but now she is home with the King. Also we’re planning my aunts memorial as well. My cousin is having a baby shower next weekend too. I need a new job…It’s driving me nuts tying to find a new one.

My best friend is going to be moving across the country in about 2 months…thank goodness it wasn’t this month like she had orgionally planned. Okay so I have to tell you about this girl. Kristen, her and I were the worst enemies in high school, total opposites, and yet we had one thing in common…God. She use to pick me apart…and you know how we became friends? after high school she made a point in finding me so that she could apologize for everything she ever said or did to me. And now with out her in my life…I don’t know where I’d be, she makes me laugh and she shares the joy of her son with me. Her little boy has blessed my life in so many ways, I can’t even explain what kind of changes I’ve been through in the past months that Kristen and I have become super close. i can’t think of a great gift to give her that really shows how much I care…I show up at her work with starbucks…(i have her order memorized), I have my parents babysit…so she can go out to dinner with me and feel a little freed up….I don’t know what i can do to show her I love her. You may think I’m crazy but I’m just so greatful for the new blessings in my life as well as the long time blessings.

Also…… I’m just really happy and finally my stresses are fading woooooohooooooo!!!!!

Yesterday was just a bad day. But today was better. I went and met my best friend for coffee, played with her son and went for a wak by the beach. Then me and my mom went and grabbed a salad for lunch before going to visit my great grandma at the hospitol. It was so sad, I’ve never seen her look so ill, and never have I ever wanted to see the open end of her hospitol gown, oh gosh.

I am looking for a new job, but I have this idea of going back to my old one for 6 weeks just so I can make some extra cash and they need the help but not until febuary. In the mean time I would still like to find another job. I need at LEAST 35 hrs. a week. I am so bored all the time… and next semester I plan on taking time off school. yayness!

Well…. Also I don’t know but I feel very happy tonight even after having a hard week and a bad afternoon.

Christmas is almost here. Time flies when you’re busy living.

Lets see…. How my life is going as of right now. I like list so here it goes:

-My uncle ended up in the hospitol and almost died.

-I am helping to flan my aunts memorial.

-I have 2 final projects, kinda stressful.

-I am looking for a new job.

-I wasn’t going to be able to pay my car payment but i got a check in the mail and it was the fatest blessing ever.

-I have dreamed many more dreams.

-I have started going to a new church, Vintage Faith is great!

- hurt my foot pretty gosh darn bad….its totally swollen and hurts to walk.

-I offically hate food.

- Hate school.

So much more…. But I’ll write later.

So tonight I heard something interesting. “Being a young woman is harder than carrying a porkypine purse through a ballon shop.” It is so true, kinda like the idea of walking on egg shells. This quote was on some show on the Disney Channel. I love that the new shows they have for kida are actually targeting the issues in today’s society. When I was little, I don’t remember seeing shows about kids with eating disorders, drug issues, STDS, high school drop outs, young people with jobs, or seperated families. It’s just amazing how things change so fast, but its great to now be able to watch TV and relate on some level. now with the media, that is still a big issue. I means ure most of America has become obese, but look at the media…they are the ones who started the process, the advertise candy and processed foods. Another thing is that everything is so expensive, we try to save money by choosing not so healthy food choices and in the long run we spend the money one buy new clothes to fit the food that stuck to our hips and tummies. Or we become so unhealthy and unaware of our bodies needs that eventually we suffer health issues related to being overweight causing us to spend more money on medical issues and the price of insurace sky rockets. The media has become greedy, and its stealing away the happiness of America for what? More money? We need to stand up to the media… we are so self-absorbed as americans that we forget those who are in greater need.

Sometimes I get so wrapped up in eating healthy or exercising or just wanting to be pretty the way society says pretty is(what a waste of time)… I could be spending time with God. Sometimes I spend money on things I really don’t need, that money coould go to charity, sometimes I work a lot to buy the things I don’t truely need….but that time, its God’s, not mine… I should use it for the better, to make someone smile, to help feed a foreign country, to give a stanger hope.

My heart is so set on God its hard to see this world come crashing down.

Any comments? Don’t be shy.

Well lets see, where do I start? Today I got a lot done around the house and it feels so great. Now I am super excited because my parents are back in town and should be here in about 10 minutes. I love them so much, they amazing people. Anyways, I’ve had a cold all week, but I’m finally starting to fell better, because I got some good sleep last night. Okay so since this is my first blog, it’s really kinda just what I like to call rambling so I will go for now, but I am excited to start my public writtings. Usually I just write on paper or to a friend, but now people can choose to listen to me vent about both the good and the bad in life. You’ll notice I talk about God a lot, know this: it is all sincere, nothing fake. Lets lets be real and share stories.

Goodnight and God bless.